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Band of Outsiders
06:07
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There is a copy of Band of Outsiders that I checked out from a local record store
and lost
having been imbued with the memory
of falling in love
with the world that I had projected upon her
awake at 4 A.M.
and watching a video that someone had created
for The Brian Jonestown Massacre’s “The Devil May Care (Mom and Dad Don’t)”
for the seventh time
and discovering the emerald green glow on the horizon
in the cool tranquility before dawn
I had once thought that the sun cast
bright golden carmine
across the snow covered plains
in the waking hours of a day gone by
in an old house that I’ve never been to
where you were cast in a film about snipers
and I had forgotten to
make the coffee for the crew
and scout the next location
They say that it is quite common for people to remember events that never took place.
As if even memory was mediated by images within what Guy Debord called “The Spectacle”.
Jean Luc Godard, whom the Situationist International neither disavowed or claimed as one of their own, is famous for having allegedly stated that “Cinema is truth twenty-four frames per second”.
As it appears in The Little Soldier, his meditation upon The Algerian War of Independence, the quote actually reads “Photography is truth and cinema is truth 24 times a second.”
A photograph is a historical record that serves as a synecdoche for an event that occurs as a totality.
Their existence emphatically proves, once and for all, that subjectivity can only be transcended through the cultivation of collective memory.
I had once imagined that I had been told a story about a newspaper article on the riots against the Serbian population that occurred following the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand.
He told me that, in spite of that the image of the destroyed carriage was a painful reminder of the intransigent ethnic strife that had incited the war, he left article up, nailed to his wall, for years later.
He said that he had done so because he identified with one the people who had been captured by the photographer.
He, then, moved his finger across the scene so as to accentuate the damage, and said,
“I guess that I left that article up for all of these years because I thought that that was what had become of this world...”
He, then, pointed to a man in the background of the image and said,
“…and that’s me running away.”
Regardless as to what is actually written in that article, my relationship to that event is mediated by an encounter that I only imagined during an odd repose from a fit of mania that I had experienced while compulsively accumulating information from Wikipedia.
History is not a scientific record.
It is also comprised of the evanescent respite from the analysis of information that inspires the creation of works of art.
There is, perhaps, something all too Vitalist, even solipsistic, or, dare I say, “Fascist”, to that sentiment, though.
It’s not that I think that Jean Luc Godard was mistaken, photography is truth and cinema, at its most basic level, is a succession of photographs; it’s just that I think that he, perhaps, had not considered the implications of that truth can be created as a mediator for a person’s subjective relationship to collective memory.
Lawrence Olivier’s Hamlet is “truth”, Ivan’s Childhood is “truth”, Maya Deren’s At Land is “truth”, the archival footage utilized in documentaries on the Holocaust is “truth”, and The Triumph of the Will is “truth”.
Jean Baudrillad is famous for having cited Ecclesiastes as stating that, “The simulacrum is never that which conceals the truth—it is the truth which conceals that there is none. The simulacrum is true.”
Cinema is as much of a simulation of an event as it is a record of an event in its own right.
When people create a film, they actually attempt to participate in the creation of memory,
and fail, I might add,
as, like any work of art,
what there is left upon the reel never quite appears as its author had imagined
and what a person feels when they see the film projected always somehow differs from every other person in the theater.
I bring all of this up because
I now wonder
what it will be like
for a person to discover
an unreturned copy of Band of Outsiders
perhaps, for the first time
there as a record
of the love I’ve never known
or the life they’ve just begun
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Lucky Strikes
01:59
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Lucky Strikes
feeling like I did when I was stoned out of my mind
lying on the floor of my apartment in the attic
and listening to Galaxie 500’s “Fourth of July”
as I,
with all of the brilliance of a world-renowned actor
delivered my thesis
upon the Intelligence community, Neo-Fascism, reckless abandon, political power, and suicide
to someone who had just come to see the band
and was either too captivated by
the sincerity, eloquence, and acuity of my speech
or astonished by the rate at which I had delivered it
to do anything other than stand there and smoke
as I had somehow connected the disparate threads
so as to leave them with a coherent theory
Feeling like I should know better than to revel in what I have always wanted for the American Tobacco Company to have sold to me
as if a pack of Luckies somehow signified an odd kind of clandestine solidarity
as if they were really for anyone who just wanted to drop out of the gambit
with all of the vaunt and charm of its famed socialites
Like smoking them was a veritable revolt against anyone who couldn’t cope with such an expression of freedom
when I know that I have merely developed an addictive compulsion
that may kill me someday
should no one else do so before then
I still smoke them when I celebrate out of spite
so as not to let what has become of my life be encapsulated by an advertising slogan
Get it?
“It’s toasted!”
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3. |
Foreign Matchbooks
00:28
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discovering
foreign matchbooks
in an abandoned house
I thought about
running numbers and
method actors who
identify so directly with the roles that they have been given
that they can no longer differentiate between
themselves and
the roles that they play
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4. |
Armisonance
00:32
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Savage, bright
and dried leaves
wake in the armisonance of your step
These shores of dead still follow me
make all kinds of glory
vain
hollows ring
circular rites
and
Savage, bright dried
leaves
wake in the armisonance of your step
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I
00:41
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The I: internal combustion machine
totem shape of the letter
all vectors curved (in)
and still
exploding, youth
set weather into Pyrénées skies
All beauty exists between the(infinite)span of here and there
collapsing –electric- collapsing
organ made manifest
by your
beating drum mallet
shutter- catch -
my pumping blood parading circadian rhythms
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6. |
Galeforce
00:46
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all salt sea stick sweet breathing lashes
on my tongue
steel-screeching mud drenched motorcycle ridden
proto-beats and
the Edge of Heaven
turn Chandala
wheels
over the bones of our dead.
Hannah said,
that we should gather-up all of the tobacco
patch it in
episcopate lines
drawn on red-winged blackbirds
drunk on whiskey
wine
and bright red
crashing golden
- High Life
in 40 ounces
The Millionth Shrine
- Tehran
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Caucasian
01:15
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Civilian
18th century born
December-ing
Cossack
traitor
turned bayonets on Nikolai
black clad
Russian skull
& bones
Anna had stolen all of her mother’s jewelry
wore it in a tzigane shack
close to the Canadian border
Family ties
drug-gun running
terminal speed
all blood run down the kitchen sink
The Aokigahara commune
rustic, efflorescent
new life breeding from the burial ground
Vajrayāna cut
cycle
Sleeping
re-born
fey sprite
burning violet
angelic hosts revolve around the golden pyre
Now absent glory
-gone shadow sleeping
gone.
Pale King
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8. |
Salutations
00:10
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…and then I just tried to abandon the world.
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9. |
Chess
00:38
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You and I went to see
Coup de Grâce
together
and played a game of chess in the city park
I lost, of course,
though, must admit
that I could’ve played better
had I not lost myself in
your opening eyes or
the swirl of cream
that I almost never take
in a cup of coffee
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10. |
Enclaves
00:35
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Still quitting
the bitter air makes
breathing
cold and clear
timber
only in halfcovered
snow
rapidly accumulating nervous tics
the tug of hair
and wince, for want of smile
your halfgone
northern Aurorae
and my unsung
choral
paintings nevermade
- the enclaves of your bay.
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11. |
Evanescence
00:33
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The waves come in in black and white
I’m looking over a cliff
and the ocean keeps coming in and out of focus
Slowly
as if on fine grain film
the sunsoaked blues become more and more vivid
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12. |
History of Cinema
02:10
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each ocean unto its solitary depths and broken tonal
wasted hours
silent frames
the shutter revolving
one day the light dies down over a town in the Northeast
and the world just rips apart
dreams and isolated visions in black and white
the line that prolongs the horizon
a horse that dies and is made anew with each image
the gaze from behind that gattling gun
always catching up with the notional gallop
the eidetic phrases and mechanical movements
headlong into culminate black
and soft glow of aluminum
the somber grain
so like the flooding shores and disintegrating charcoal
Self Portrait in Watercolor
the calligraphic lines occidental ink
blotting wells in his pupils as deep as rock sediment
Death is a language that is ephemeral
the light always shines through
shoring the soundless knoll of its fervid procession
the venerated halls
and incense burning from the thurible
Sunlight cast down on the dial outside
the ever divisive incisions that mark the passage of time
and the body bled black as it hurls itself into the ever retreating
oblivion
I live here now,
alone in this world.
I live here now,
alone.
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