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Host (Demo)

by Jaska Xaver

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1.
Caucasus 03:26
It isn’t coming. You know that, right? what the hell are you doing? It’s just GLOOM on Sunday Did you paint your masterpiece? It is never going to be what you want it to be. They’re all waiting Sarah Kane, remember? Why don’t you go on that pilgrimage see if you can’t find that bullet… You don’t want to do you? You never did. The NOISE is always going to be there you know that, right? Caucasus Dead Winter a ghost in white the VISION those twilight hours when the sky is a near perfect blue A silent sea her BODY rushing towards you -273° Celsius The Castration Complex Ulrike Meinhof The day is like wide water, without sound Crete A public shower naked and immune David, what have you gotten yourself into? Hash – the kind they banned in Afghanistan Palestine no, Rome. In the sunset of dissolution everything is illuminated Gold This city’s secret paths a candle made of wax the butterflies My MEDIUM wants me dead “don’t” she said “don’t…” Keter The High Priest a face and a name I have never known Navarre Not a but THE girl mentioned Desolation Row Sunlight captured in a jar ripe as any and cloyingly sweet the poison I will suck from your skin take me to the Apothecary won’t you, Ophelia? The spell I have cast will only last for so long you can take my knife this is our cue My hands were made in ash and your wounds will heal in time and quicker than you know Please the blood runs from the backs of my Patella I cannot help but kneel The dice rolled VII play your game You and I both know that you want to . . . Baudelaire The death of G-d Muchomůrky Bílé/ A bargain YES Speak THROUGH Me
2.
GLOOM 00:44
“I could at least get a hundred for it, “ she says with a smile like I’m not even sitting there across from her. Like she didn’t just offer to sell me to him. What the fuck? of course I’m still in love with her, perhaps more – I hope she pulls that shit all the time, never bats and eye, like she’s completely unaware – Fuck, GLOOM man, she takes from all of us. She referred to me as “it’. I feel like Valerie Solanis.
3.
Kyrie hitched a ride with a sad-eyed charismatic touched-moth given aureole Christ-like radiant hand extended horror as she trembled through his passenger-side door “Where you headed?” “Doesn’t matter…” Visions of psychological experiments performed upon Her phased unbeaten body breathing slowly Her spine a chiastic phrase drawn into two separate organs the dawn again new softly waking In the Kingdom she cried, “I know this song.” He smiles early magic hour hair waving golden portrait into sunlight
4.
Centrifuge 00:28
yeah, but his life really wasn’t that interesting it was just depressing besides, in the ways that it was it was it really wasn’t the sort of thing that you could talk about… he was a centrifuge for a while – it drove him insane.
5.
White Noise 01:17
white noise. getting stoned in my garage and reading White Noise, getting stoned in my house and reading The Use and Abuse of History, getting stoned in my living room and watching The Goebbels Experiment – American Swing. the long disaffected stare of a woman in upper-state New York. going nowhere. thinking about reading J. G. Ballard. going nowhere. hearing my twenty-seven year-old cousin attempt to censor my thoughts & taking the vague recollection of someone I knew who recently began eating gefilte fish out from the still – a cut from the nitrocellulose plane. play William Basinski at 78 rpm. watching the ash crumble from the ember of my cigarette. hearing the ring from my typewriter. letting the slide crash. lying cross-legged on the floor and listening to an album by Mazzy Star. letting the tape disintegrate. letting the songs turn to static and turn into the wave.
6.
Summer 00:35
tall unkempt grass mitigating sunlight golden, kodachrome 70s palette small dirt path thin enough for just one bike wheel every day from five to seven he rides alone fully clothed with cap even in circles around his fenced-in backyard.
7.
Host 01:26
Lying on the floor and listening to the sound of the din outside the life in the city and your grandfather’s clock still motionless on the strings of an old mandolin not quite in tune or to any particular key just the ringing of the bells from the church on Brerton A sound that I’ve invented to mark the infinite succession of the present in makeshift time slowing down as if the jangled beads in your hair could form candy colored raindrops and speeding up to the windswept flutter of my heart A Sunday morning spent outside of the drizzling rain and smoking on the landing where the ember seemed to attract a rare butterfly and I was afraid to catch the cigarette’s heat in the beated wings of this remarkable insect The down and out brigade down on Dobson and my own stranded Self caught between Saturday’s aftermath and the angelic host of the Holy Spirit
8.
Figurine 01:11
winged moth legs touched off an outstretched finger soft velvet black costumes and the bodies of a dancer in near dark and double mirror the geographical distinctions where the blanket lies and your hair lays next to mine or somebody like mine the clear plate glass windows in a building where we don’t belong something clinical to this place not the drifting wreck of home nor the expedient daze of work but the calm of an empty room, an empty shell, a vacant house, or a newly painted canvas mostly white there is just something to being on the run that makes you forget about the past collection of violent photographs and unsung batelages

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This demo contains mention of psychological experiments.

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released May 28, 2020

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